Oliver stared at his phone, but then caught himself and glanced away, back to work, back to his computer. He wished that had only been the first time today that he’d done that. Truth, he’d been waiting for the stupid thing to ring all morning.
He kind of hated himself for that. Hated Connor, too, just a little.
“I’ll call,” Connor had said as he stumbled out of Oliver’s apartment this morning. His shirt had been half tucked half not, his belt hung undone. His shoes hadn’t even been tied, but still he burst through that door like he’d catch fire if he stayed in the apartment one second longer. “I promise I’ll call.” Then he’d ran down the hallway.
Connor had never stayed the full night before, and Oliver’s sure this time was an accident. Their sex the night before had been… aerobic, and lasted well into the early morning. After, Connor had fallen asleep. His face had relaxed more than Oliver had ever seen. Oliver hadn’t the heart to wake him. Connor didn’t get enough sleep as it was, always carrying such heavy bags under his eyes and tension in his shoulders.
Plus, selfishly, Oliver had wanted him to stay, especially when Connor curled into his side and used his chest as a pillow.
He should have known better. All he did scare Connor away.
“He won’t call again,” Oliver said with a small nod, determined. He’d just have to forget Connor and Connor’s sharp smirk, and the way it slid away when Oliver made him moan. No problem. He could forget, too, the way Connor had smiled in his sleep, soft, in a way Oliver never really saw before. If only he’d smile at Oliver like that, once, while awake.
It’d hurt less when he forgets it. And the way Connor’s arm wrapped around him and held him tightly all night long. And the way he nuzzled his cheek against Oliver’s when he just woke up, before he realized what time it was.
Oliver sighed. He glanced at his phone. Then scolded himself.
Then his phone actually rang.
hey could you please write something based off “now i’m all messed up” by tegan and sara? i’ve been obsessed with this song recently and i thought it would fit coliver :) i love your writing btw!!
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