You keep saying the past is the past, but the past make you who you are. I want to know about your life. And if you’re not willing to tell me about it, then I shouldn’t be with you. Because I know me, and I won’t ever be okay with it. So I shouldn’t put us both through that again

Alec Lightwood, City of Heavenly Fire

I’ve been sorry and I’ve been understood and I’ve apologized and apologized, and you haven’t ever been there. I did all that without you. So it makes me wonder what else I could do, WITHOUT YOU

Alec Lightwood being a strong independent person who need no Magnus (he kind of did actually), City of Heavenly Fire by Cassandra Clare

WARNING: I DONT HAVE A COMPUTER RIGHT NOW SO I CANT PUT THIS UNDER READ MORE, IF YOU DON’T WANT TO SEE COHF SPOILERS PLEASE SCROLL DOWN REALLY FAST I’M SO SORRY >”<

Thought on Malec (part 2)

llightwood: Malec are my favourites too, but I actually was okay with how things happened. After all, I wanted them to get back together, and the book is already really long, so prolonge it … I actually like the part where Alec said he was in pieces because Magnus was missing, I thought his distress was well showed til he found him! I think there was actually more Malec moments than in COLS, no ? In the 5th book, we don’t get to see them talk much, besides little parts here and then and the breakup

Oh when i said there aren’t many Malec moments i mean we dont get to see a lot from their POV. We get Magnus’ POV a few times but there are hardly any from Alec’s POV, we only know what he said not what he really feels inside.I dont mean he didnt mean what he said,of course he was in pieces because Magnus was missing, but i want to know more than just words, I want to see inside his head

In CoFA & CoLS we get something like this

“But Magnus… You never told me. Never warned me it would be like this, that I would wake up one day and realize that I was going somewhere you couldn’t follow. That we are essentially not the same. There’s no ‘till death do us apart’ for those who never die.”

Or this

“Magnus’ door was cracked slightly open, and the sounds of music playing softly wafted out into the hall. Today it was Tchaikovsky. Alec felt his shoulders relax as the door of the apartment shut behind him. He could never be quite sure how the place was going to look it was minimalist right now, with white couches, red stacking tables, and stark black-and-white photos of Paris on the walls but it had begun to feel increasingly familiar, like home. ”

But in this book, it’s like we back in CoB, CoA & CoG where we hardy get anything from their POV. I think it has something to do with Alec being with Clary all the time, so it’s hard to swicth POV

Or maybe i’m too used to Magnus’ POV from TBC so i became greedy lol. I guess we will have to count on fanfic writers after all

shahania: I agree with this … Feel like Cassandra was trying to promote her future books too much…. Although the book is still amazing

Did she? To be honest I only read Malec & Sizzy’s parts with some occasion of Clace to vaguely understand what’s going on LOL
The only part I read about Emma was when she run to their place to tell them about Edom, but I do notice that her name shows up a lot

fandomsshipsfeels: I agree.
First there’s the lack of Malec moments. For me their relationship is one of the most mature and complicated. So I was expecting more scenes.
I don’t know if this is the reason, but it also happens in other books/tv series that the gay couple is the less showed.
So I’m still blaming all this on the fact that apparently the world is not ready for homosexual romance. Bah!
What disappointed me the most is the ending.
I’ve always known that Magnus would be Alec’s only one.
I wanted Alec to be Magnus’ most important one. Ever.
I was so happy when in CoLS Mag told him ‘There won’t be a next time’.
But that was one book ago and many things could change.
Magnus is still immortal, he can find love again after Alec dies.
Tessa is the perfect example of this.
And I swear I’d have been ok even with both of them dead, if that would’ve meant together forever (it’s selfish, I know).
I hope they’ll be in TDA, I think Magnus will be there, but Alec won’t.
Cassie has often said that books have to show that reality is cruel and painful and the idea of one immortal warlock that will never love again goes against that.
I respect Cassie and her work (she gave us Malec), but I think they’re the ones with the worst ‘happy’ ending.

I think a lot about the lack of Malec moments & why their ending is so different from Clace & Sizzy
I mean you can see Clace & Sizzy have a happily ever after then die together but Malec’s immortality problem is still there
But when I woke up this morning it hit me: we still have a chapter left for The Bane Chronicles. I mean all the stories in TBC are not really connected like an usual book but it still need a concluding chapter
I imagine (& hope) this last chapter will be like Clockwork Princess’ epilogue, tell us about Malec’s happy life together until Alec grows old and … you know what i mean, i cant say the word. 
And HOPEFULLY Magnus will follow him, not ‘kill himself’ kind of follow, but ‘he finally find a way to grow old with Alec’ kind. (hey, a girl can dream right)
Just like in CP2’s epilogue when we found out that Jem isnt a Silent brother anymore but dont know how, Cassie may tease us about Magnus being mortal but wont explain until TDA (hey Cassie can you read this, if you want to promote TDA this is the perfect chance please dont let me down)
Honestly I want them to die together too. When I read the part Magnus want to stay at the demon realm so others can go back, I kinda hope that they stay & die together in Edom
It tooks me like months to decide whether to read TBC or not, because I couldn’t stand seeing Magnus with other people than Alec, it still feels like cheating even if at those time Alec isnt born yet. That feeling is still there and I refuse to read anymore of Cassie’ works if Magnus loves someone else in the future
But why do you think Alec wont be in TDA? It’s only 5 years after CoHF, i’m pretty sure he will still alive by that time (even if shadowhunter’s life is dangerous, i believe Magnus will never let him die in battle).
Honestly if there is someone who should not appear in TDA it would be Magnus, not because he was dead but because he appears in every fucking series of the shadowhunter chronicles (TID, TMI and im pretty sure he will be in TLH too)
.He even has his own book so i think it’s time for Cassie to give him a rest & have a happy normal life, not being involved in Shadowhunter’s business
And there are lots of people who tired of his appearances (not me of course) but i dont want people to hate him just because he shows up a lot

Now, there is another thing that bothers me in CoHF
What the hell did Magnus’ mean when he said “A lot of Shadowhunter don’t get old”???
Did he mean “Oh, even if you get old you will still beautiful” (like Will)
Or “Even if you get old & die people will still remember you”
Or “There is a way for Shadowhunter to NOT get old”???????????????????????????????????? (other than becomeSilent Brother of course)
OR am I missing something here because I kind of read the book in a rush so there might be something I skipped that I shouldn’t
This is horrible because IT GIVES ME HOPE THAT THERE MIGHT BE A CHANCE FOR THEM TO BE TOGETHER FOREVER

rinchannoparadise: I don’t know if I will read Cassie’s next trilogy or not, considering that Malec is the main factor that pull me into this fandom! Hope that you will continue to update on them (If they have some appearance) in the next book. Thank you! 

I know what you feel, it tooks me 4 MONTHS to finish TID because I was always like “All these things that’s going on are fascinating but where is Magnus? I only read this for Magnus get me Magnus” and then when Magnus didn’t show up I got bored & stop reading for like a month before pick it up again LOL I’m not sure if i would read TDA or not either, but if i do, i will remember to post it here :3

Sort of finish CoHF, here is some thoughts on Malec (Part 1)

Well, everything turn out well, but it still feels like their story isn’t end yet. We still have TDA in the future so i still hope to see more of their relationship

Er, actually i expected A LOT more drama & epic arguements than this, but to be honest every Malec scenes makes my heart ache because they are so sweet even though there are not that much scenes they are together 

Robert & Alec’s conversation is kind of unsatisfying but hell, the Waywood part is the biggest plot twist of this book LOL

Alec is a wonderful human being mommy sorry for ever doubt you in the past ;______;

Magnus’ father was boring LOL Sorry you didnt impress me that much

Overall, it’s more of the sweet side than the angst i expected, at this point i would like to point out that i have read fanfics that handle their relationship better but you cant have everything so … dont get me wrong I like this ending too but there is still something not quite satisfying about it …

My last CoHF theory:

Alec is seriously injured, Magnus uses his power to transfer his immortality to Alec & save him, now Alec is immortal & Magnus is mortal. They are happy together until Magnus & everyone else die. Now only Alec & Simon are left, they develop feelings for each other. Alec & Simon is endgame